THE WOMAN IN ME & THE PAIN By Michelle Collier

THE WOMAN IN ME
I Look in a Mirror & What do I see?
The eyes of a Stranger looking back at Me
Which Is the Woman Behind The Glass?
The one Longing For Love or The one Pushing It Past?
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Feeling So Close ~ Yet So Far Away
At Once It Is Night and Still It Is Day
Look Into My Eyes~Oh Why Can't You See
the Woman Inside the Woman In Me
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Emotional OPPOSITES Is What We Are
Like Black to White & Close to Far
Cold Hearted Bitch Chases Love Away,
One Desperate For Love Begs IT to Stay
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A Mirage of Feelings- So Full Of Fear,
Leave the Mind to Disappear on A Tear
Always Smiling Brightly, For My Friends To See
Alone stands the Woman Inside, the Woman in Me.
by Michelle Collier 4 -94

THE PAIN
The Pain
is a million little needles
all puncturing the Skin
Pricking your eyelids; In & Out Again

The Pain
is a heart bursting wide open
Lungs Devoid of Air
Body Starved for Love
that's Just Not There

The Pain
Is the Choice of Death or Life
of Lust or of Love-
Do I go To Hell Below
Or Up To Heaven Above?

The Pain
Is in the Knowing, No Matter What I Do
Never Again Will I Recieve, Any Love From You
I'll Never Taste Your Sweet, Sweet Lips
Or Feel Your Love Divine...
OH God, what a Cold, Cold Hell Is Mine

The Pain
Is the LOVE of a Lifetime
Slipping Away for the Lust of the Hour
White Hot Love~More Precious Than Gold
Lies in the Ashes Broken and Cold

The Pain
Is Looking Toward the Future
and Seeing NOTHING There
And No One Left Who Cares

The Pain
Is Slowly Loading Up Your Gun
Taking one Last Look at your Only Son
And eating the Bullet Of a Small Shot gun.
By Michelle Collier~ 1992
 I wrote both of these in the early '90's after a Serious Breakup.  I did not Kill Myself-hahaha as you can see I am alive and well- I just thought they may help someone else going through what I went through to see that it does get better and 'Life Goes On',  as long as you just wait it out! This too shall pass....